It will mean a lot to Zac too to have you two there.” It filled me with a certain dread to think about being face to face with Taylor again. “I’ll be there, I wouldn’t miss it,” I replied, taking a big gulp of my coffee and a deep breath. But I cared about Kate, and was flattered she’d invite me, and wanted to be there for her special day. It made me nervous to think about seeing Taylor again. “…yeah,” Kate replied, “ but, I’ll talk to him. “Taylor will be there then?” I asked, even though I knew the answer. But then Zac and I talked about it and we agreed that Ryan and you are like family. “It’s Taylor, huh? You don’t want to see him.” “No, the show will be closed by then but…” my voice trailed off. Once for Ryan’s brother’s wedding and once for Christmas with Ryan’s family. I had visited Tulsa a couple times since the initial time I visited for Hanson Day in 2014. “No,” I said, “Don’t get me wrong, I’m so happy for you and Zac! I’d love to come of course. “You’ve got to be kidding me,” I said, then regretted it. That was the last thing I thought she’d be calling about. “Zac and I are renewing our vows! And we want you and Ryan to attend the ceremony. “Palace, I’m calling to catch up of course, but also for another reason!” Kate said. You know, the usual craziness in the Hanson world,” she laughed. “How’s your world? Kids are good? How’s Zac?” Was thinking about going out of town actually. We just closed a show and I have a couple weeks off actually. “I’m doing really well, thanks for asking!’ Kate’s sweet, quiet voice came through the phone speaker. I answered, then put it on speaker phone. I hadn’t heard from her in quite some time. My phone rang and I glanced at the screen, and was surprised to see it was Kate, Zac’s wife. I took the cup of coffee and took a sip, the dream still so fresh in my mind. I checked my texts listlessly and responded to one from my assistant. I chugged a small glass of water with lemon, my morning routine. I padded into the kitchen, popped a pod into my Kuerig and sat down heavily at my kitchen counter stool. Our show opened next weekend and I couldn’t afford any distractions. I toed on my slippers and just sat there on the side of my bed for a moment, rubbing my eyes. So why now, after all these years, was he showing up in my dreams again? Was the chemistry we had still there? Would the old feelings I had for him come back? I loved my boyfriend Ryan, but a part of me was worried that if Taylor came on to me again, would I give in like I had beofre. Needless to say, I didn’t need Taylor showing up in my dreams. We fell for eachother hard and fast and ending it was one of the hardest things I’d ever done. It was the best sex I’d ever had in my life. I got swept up in it and it carried me away. A kind of electric chemistry I’d never felt with anyone before. But in his own way, I think he did love me. I fought it initially, but the attraction was to hard to resist. It was very hard leaving him and it took me years to process what had happened. Taylor and me’s affair only went on for a couple weeks before I ended it and went home, but it was very intense and he believed he was in love with me. How Taylor and me met, how the affair started, how I met Ryan… everything. In that I go over everything that happened. Like I said, you’ll understand more if you’ve read my previous story. There was a time I thought about him daily, but those days were long gone. It had been five years since I’d seen Taylor. I didn’t know why this was happening now, and I wished it wasn’t. And when I awoke, they felt as real as if they had just happened. Lately Taylor had been making appearances in my dreams. I sat up in bed and groaned, my head in my hands. "I want this moment to last forever," he said. I kissed him back, enjoying how his body felt against mine. He led me into an alcove and then, without warning, pulled me close and kissed me hard. "Come with me." Taylor said, taking my hand. "Holy shit." I mumbled, eyes wide, hand on my chest. Suddenly, a huge clap of thunder erupted, causing me to jump. ”Isn't it great?" Taylor asked, spreading his arms out and throwing his head back.
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